The allure of older men *YUM*

By anyone's standards (especially my mother's, including my own), I am young! And I'll be the first to admit that I don't know much about love, although I have shown obssessive tendancies once or twice before. But that's not to say I don't know what I want, becasue I absolutely do. Bluntly put, I want an older man. SIMPLE. At least 7 years older than me, AT LEAST! Why, you ask? Read on
See, unlike most people, I'm not afraid or even slightly ashamed to admit I've got Daddy issues. It's not my fault shit worked out the way it has with my father so I see no reason for me to pretend everything smells of roses and peaches when it's clear as fuck there's a dead rat somewhere in the mix. So, as the rule of Psychology suggests: I now want someone to fill the niches my father failed in.

Someone to tell me I'm still loved when I inevitably fuck up, someone who isn't afraid to let go of their defenses and apologise when they've done me wrong, a man who will be strong enough to handle my supersized persona without feeling his positioned threatned as a man. I want a man who knows his weaknesses but not give in to them. This man appreciates me, he loves me openely and completely.

Now, these characteristics may be attributed to young guys too, but ny experience proves that young studs are still preoccupied with tryna "find themselves" and since I'm done with the path of self-discovery I'd rather not spend my very precious time playing juvenile mind games with guys under the age of 28.

So shuld you see me arm-in-arm with a man who looks like my father & think about gasping in disgust: GO AHEAD. But remember that part of who I am is determined by the dynamics I was brought up under (which weren't stellar). I have no regret in choosing to date the men I do, but maybe if our black father's would fail their black daughters less often, we wouldn't face the risk of being castrated for choosing men from our fathers' age groups to fulfill responsibilities that belonged to the old geyser anyways!

Go on & hate me
CrazyBlackVirgin